My Story

Hi, my name is Jessica, I’m 18 years old. I just finished my first year of college and this is my story. I’m an only child. I live here with my mom. My dad moved out a couple of years ago. They fought all the time. I thought it was just current that they would fight, but apparently it’s been since I was little and they just hid it. They are more than likely getting a divorce and aren’t getting back together. Now as a teenage girl that’s hard to hear right? Yeah. My mom gets mad a lot, she yells, she takes her anger out on other people. She’s a good person though. There are times that I sit in my room and cry. I let it get to me. No, I don’t get bullied. But I do know what it feels like to be upset and cry and not want to talk to anyone and even the point of depression. When my mom gets mad, I get mad. I sit in my room furious, until I hit the point of tears. I’ll start crying, wondering what I did to deserve this. So the last time this happened, was last Sunday. But instead of getting upset, I sat in my room and thought of all the reasons why I should be happy. I have amazing friends who support me in anything I do, who are always here for me, who love me and who can even make me laugh when I don’t want to. I told myself that there is no reason for me to be upset over things that I can’t control. I told myself that why obsess over something that can’t be changed when I can put a legit smile on my face and wear it around everywhere. I’ve been happy and positive and in a good mood every since. I don’t let things get to me anymore because there really isn’t any point to it. Especially the things that can’t be changed. There was this time a month or so ago, someone went to my ask box on tumblr and told me to kill myself. I didn’t let this bother me though because I know I can overcome anything and I have people who love me and support me. Now I know it’s hard to be positive all the time, believe me, I break, but then I pick up the pieces and carry on. Just know, that you aren’t alone, and there are so many people out in this crazy, mixed up world that want to help you. It’s hard to let them, but they just wants best for you. So don’t be upset over the little things. Put a real smile on your face and just live your life to the best of your ability. Life is beautiful and I hope you are here to see that. I’m always here if you want or need someone to listen. Don’t forget that. Oh yeah, and you’re beautiful too! <3